Out in Bath

The hard part is knowing what to try next. I think I will invest in another Transformation Changeaway and try to pick up a few tips.

By Denise Bailey

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I usually walk round with my wife not far away in case of trouble, but sometimes I walk about by myself while she goes into a shop. On this occasion I had built up enough confidence in my latest outfit to actually risk going into a shop for the first time. We had selected Marks and Spencer for the trial run and my secret ambition was to try on a pair of shoes I had seen earlier.

The store was very brightly lit and I felt rather nervous. At first we stayed on the ground floor where there were many tall stands to give some cover. After a few minutes I felt more confident and we ventured upstairs to look at the lingerie. The upstairs was more open and had fewer people about so I felt more exposed but still felt confident.

I then wanted to try the ultimate test and visit the shoe department. As I headed along the open gangway to the shoe area I was immediately 'read' by a chap who was standing there waiting for his wife. He had the time for a long leisurely look and as I walked towards him and he discreetly pointed me out to his wife. After a momentary glance at the shoes I made a rather swift about turn and headed back to the stairs and out into the safety of the street.

In many ways the chap in Marks and Spencer had done me a favour. The next day I felt strangely relaxed by the experience. At last I had tested my outfit and discovered its limitations. I am no longer hiding behind my own mirror image, but real world experience. I don't yet know where the weakness is, but it gives me something to work on and an ambition to try and achieve a totally convincing look.

Tense

The hard part is knowing what to try next. I think I will invest in another Transformation Changeaway and try to pick up a few tips. Certainly the make-up could be further refined, perhaps a more feminine walk is required or maybe I somehow looked tense and did not smile enough.

I think the real problem is to strike a balance between looking totally convincing, but at the same time sufficiently conventional as to avoid a long and searching look.

I hope my experience gives others the courage to walk out for the first time. Remember to use the crowd as your friend and to walk along with everyone else. The more people there are milling about the less conspicuous you become.

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