Hi my name is Bob/Emma and this is a short story about myself and most of all to thank and praise for all the help that Diane and her team at the Prestwich branch of Transformation that have helped me to understand the feelings in my mind and body of being a female trapped in a male body for the last 45 years plus ,with no one to talk to or to understand me as there was no internet to find out about things.

Thinking back when I was a child and growing up into my teenage years I loved looking at my mums mail order catalogue pretending I was looking at toys but really looking at women’s underwear  shoes and dresses. At that time in my life I suppose I thought that was normal but maybe not the right thing to be looking at I never told anybody not even my brother.

At school at break time i was always with the girls I enjoyed their company more then the boys and I did not like any male sports football rugby etc and still don’t today.

As time went on and I started work as a mechanic in the car trade as I loved cars. This is a very male trade but I got on ok but I never joined in going out with the lads for a drink .

I found myself more at ease with the girls on reception, they all loved me because I was and have been all my life kind and gentle and very loving and never swear. As you know in workshops there is always a calendar with naked young ladies on when I looked at them the male in me said she was gorgeous but also the female side of me  said I wish I looked like them I still feel that way today but more so.

I got married in my early twenties which was the thing you did. This gave me a great opportunity to put my wife’s undies and clothes on while she was out.

I started buying my own bra and knickers and and would put them under my work clothes and this felt great. Wearing women’s clothes or underwear then was mostly called crossdressing or being a transvestite but I felt I was neither of these.  I was something else, I was different but who do I talk to, there was nobody.

Maybe I got married too early in my life as after 6 years I got divorced. I think maybe that was my fault as I love talking to woman and my wife was very jealous. I told her that i just liked talking to women and there was nothing for her to worry about but she did not know about me wearing women’s clothes.

I got my own flat and my own garage and that’s where I met and fell in love with my second wife. We got married and and have two beautiful daughters 20 and 24 years old and been together for 30 years.

My wife worked shifts and over the years I got plenty of chances of dressing up and being the woman that I wanted in my heart to be. I have built up a very large collection of clothes which i keep in the attic in the garage for example over 200 pairs of knickers 50/60 bras 20 pairs of heels which I love, dozens of pairs of stockings tights and hold ups, 8 wigs, 6 pairs of silicone breasts and lots more of tops /skirts/dresses coats and much more.

The years passed by we did all the things that family’s do and in the meantime still finding time to dress up but not as much still keeping it a secret until one day 4 years ago my wife and daughters went shopping together and I  thought this is great a good chance to dress up and do some decorating dressed as Emma.

Then DIASTER struck, I heard the front door unlock they had come home early they changed there minds. Luckily enough I was on the landing looking in the mirror I always kept my male clothes in the bathroom just in case this happened.

And then it happened i had left a pair of knickers on the floor the only mistake i had ever made in all the years I had been dressing up. I always put on 3 pairs when dressing up as one pair does not keep you bits in place very well 3 is just right a girl cant have to many pairs of knickers. I was one pair missing.

I got dressed in my male clothes put my female clothes tucked under my shirt and down my pants then put them in a cupboard in the garage where i used to keep a case with my favourite clothes in then carried on working.

In the evening I asked my wife had she found some knickers on the landing she said I have put them in the washing bin why do you ask. At that moment I thought shall I say they are mine or keep quit . Well I said they are mine all went silent she was shocked.

We talked for sometime and her main concern was she felt cheated that all these years together she thought she had married a man and not a woman and always thought I was a man to love and rely and trust upon.

We had a long talk I said i am not a woman I am still Bob the man you married but i just love woman’s clothes and dressing up .The truth is I hate wearing men’s clothes. I  just love the feel and all the huge choice of women’s clothing I did not tell her that at this time . 4 years have passed since that day it solved some issues but also made some worse.

Emma was free to be herself without keeping it secret from my wife she agreed that I could wear my female clothes when making tea or watching t v as long as the girls are not about but only now and then I said that’s great thank you .

What do girls do that make themselves more feminine ? You’ve guessed it they shave all their body hair off, shape and paint their toe nails red, polish there finger nails put woman’s deodorant on. I love that smell and sleep in their undies. I did all these but not all at once as this was not a good idea.

At this point my wife had enough she said that she could not carry on living in the house with with another woman which she referred to as my girlfriend it will have to stop or we split up.

We talked again I said I would move out and live on my own but she said  don’t  as she still loved me and wanted Bob back as he was try and sort Emma as she is ruining our relationship she is making you very selfish you are thinking about being female 24/7.

I am not selfish in anyway I love to give and to treat and love everyone in my life.

She was right i had to change the way that Emma had made me feel but for the better.

That’s 18 months ago and I tried to switch Emma off. I stopped dressing up and looking at woman thinking I wish I looked like them. The female body is just amazing, woman are fantastic too often taken for granted and they can make babies how fantastic is that and I wanted to be one.

Most days I would feel mixed up and being pulled one way and then the other I can understand being transgender is why some people do self harm and take there own lives I said to myself I need help.

I went on line looked at many sites and then I plucked up the courage and one day phoned Transformations. Diane answered the phone after a long conversation I knew she understood how I felt and was there to help me I love her and her voice I could talk to Diane all day.

Diane recommended that I go on a course of hormones, I was a bit sceptical and cautious as I have read about them some good and some bad reports but I trusted her and placed an order.

The following day they were delivered to the garage where I work.

It’s the best thing I have ever done. WOW they are amazing they take away that feeling of being pulled male to female which very hard for other people to understand. They make me feel female and the Emma in me very happy and content i have been taking them for over 12 months now and my skin is softer. My nails are long and strong and my breasts have got a bit bigger. Still a long way to get my 38dd which is my dream maybe one day I might have implants.

Its taken 4  months and now I think i have found the perfect balance that keeps everyone happy.

Last December leading up to Christmas I plucked up the courage and went shopping with my 38 DD padded bra and breasts in and a tight top on all on show they look and feel fantastic, did my shopping and then changed back into my male clothes in my car.

I thought I cant believe I did that a few days later i did the same again but this time with woman’s ankle boots with 3 inch heels on. WOW the noise of the heels and bounce of my boobs felt amazing. I wouldn’t have had the confidence to do that 12 months ago.

I do this 3 /4 times a week plus wear a bra to work every day. Emma is very happy and content . I have found that if I turn her off when I am at home and just keep Emma to be in my time going to work and back everything is fine.I still dress up at home when I can sometimes at 6 am before I go to work when there is nobody else up.

Well this short story has grown a bit this is only the tip of the iceberg there’s more to say, I could write a book.

My wife has not mentioned my female side for 4 months and I have never seen her so happy, we feel great together.

You might be asking where do I go from here well I would love to have a sex change if they were being given out for free I would be first in line to have it done. The biggest problem would be all the people in my life and their responses and making my family sad. Maybe one day. I would love to tell everyone at work but again I think they would be either very inquisitive or just not want to understand.

Last of all i think that if everyone could just wear what clothing they feel comfortable in be it male or female and not what society requires it would be a wonderful world . I Think that everyone has a little bit of transgender in themselves but just to frightened to explore it.

There is so much out there now that if I was in my 20/30s and felt like I do I would have a sex change without any doubt you never know in the future would it be great to be able to swap minds male to female female to male as that is where it all stems from it would save all swapping body bits ha ha..

I have no idea what it is like to be male one day I might get my dream body and get rid of my bits below which I hate .

I can’t thank Diane enough for all her help and advice she is amazing love her so much.

That’s it I wish I was a woman all my love to everyone who reads this I know what you are going through all my love Emma xxxxxxxxxxxxx would love to wear my 👠 every day if only i could, I was born for heelsxxxxxxxx

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It was in 1969 that I first revealed my secret to another woman…. I felt I just had to. I had invited my boss’s secretary for a drink and I felt she would understand. I slipped her a couple of photo’s of myself dressed as Christine. Yes, she understood alright, although she said she would never have suspected such a thing of me! The next week she visited me at my home. This became a regular event when we would sit and sip sherry in a ladylike fashion. Soon I was showing her my large range of lingerie. One day she asked to feel the material of certain undies I was wearing. I stepped over to the armchair in which she was sitting, and her hand felt the nylon slip and then ran up and down my sheer black stockings until she touched the crotch of my panties. I gasped as it had a sensational effect on me. “Nice?” she asked, as her fingers began to move slowly up and down, brushing the nylon against my now stiffening penis. Of course, she went on until I exploded in a wonderful orgasm, and that was the beginning of a relationship which lasted some years. Every time she visited, or I visited her flat, it ended up with her giving me a lovely orgasm. Sometimes she would be at me almost before the downing of our first sherry or whatever we may be drinking. I hardly had time to strip down to my nice undies before her fingers would close around and work on me until I was trembling at the knees. As I backed off and collapsed in an armchair breathing heavily, I still wanted more. On days when she  was feeling rather sexy herself, she would disappear to my bedroom and strip off, she would borrow my black sheer negligee and re-appear beside me and we both pleasured each other. One day she asked if I wanted to meet a woman friend of hers called Bea, Bea liked to watch other please each other and she also had a friend called Mary who liked to apply make to cross dressers. The four of us meeting together for the first time was mind blowing and this happened once a month. My wife knew all about what went on and was happy to turn a blind eye, our children had flown the next and she was happy to go to work each day, we lead a normal life really. I now have a wild circle of female friends and still like to flaunt myself in front of them.

Clothing Tips for Dressing a Male as a Female

• Use caution when wearing strapless or thin-strapped designs. This is because men naturally have broader shoulders than women, and if you want to pull off dressing as a woman seamlessly, opting to show your shoulders is a dead give away that you're a man. If you must wear a strapless style, be sure to have a wrap, stole, or jacket handy to cover up. Also, instead of wearing thin spaghetti straps, choose wider straps that are more flattering.
• Form-fitting clothing looks better than you think. It may look and feel a little awkward at first, but deciding to wear form-fitting clothing over baggy, relaxed styles is definitely the way to go. It creates the natural outline of a woman's body easier, and helps you create the full illusion. Whether it be dresses, skirts, pants or tops, clothing cut close to the body works best.
• Embrace darker colours, and be cautious with light or bold ones. Darker colors are going to easily conceal the more masculine elements of your body, thus creating a more convincing illusion. Lighter shades should really be worn with caution because you can't hide anything when the color you're wearing is especially light. Bold colors are more forgiving than light ones, but they also tend to draw a lot of attention, so be aware before you buy.
• Dress your body as though you were a woman. This bascially means that the way you dress as a man does not apply to the way you dress as a woman. You need to know what female body type you have, and dress it accordingly for the most flattering look. The way to do this is to do a little research on female body shapes and see which one you best fit into, and then style your clothing as such.

Sizing Information

Tips for Lingerie/Foundation Garments

• A cross-dressing bra is essential; it provides the foundation of a feminine ensemble. In order to convince the rest of the world that you're a woman, you're going to need an eye-catching bosom.
• Plan on stuffing this bra with breast form inserts to create a firm and shapely chest. A specialty bra will also provide the contour shaping needed to create the coveted hourglass shape.
• After the bra is stuffed, it's time to squeeze into a proper fitting pair of underwear. Men will need to conceal their attributes while creating a round and lifted backside.
• Invest in rear padding to create the illusion of a round and voluptuous booty. Discreet online retailers who specialize in transvestite apparel make specialty panties available, and men can choose from a variety of sexy lingerie options such as thongs, lacy briefs, and boy shorts.

Being Transgender

What's the difference between Trans* and other forms of gender identity?

• A transsexual person is someone whose gender identity is the opposite of the sex assigned to them at birth. Transsexual people may or may not take hormones or have surgery.
• Cross-dressers are people who like to wear the clothes of another gender, but who don't identify as another gender.
• Drag Kings/Drag Queens are people who exaggerate female and male roles, generally for the purpose of entertainment.
• Androgynes are people who mix the characteristics/appearance of both sexes in a subtle or deliberately flamboyant way.
• Intersex People are people who can be born with a reproductive or sexual anatomy that doesn’t fit with typical definition of male or female.

Eddy Walsh rang the bell on the door of the Mews flat. It was swung open by a young lady in her early twenties. Eddy’s eyes widened, she was very pretty and dressed in a most attractive maid’s uniform-grey satin dress with a short, flared skirt topped by a tiny frilly apron and French maid’s cap to match. “yes” she inquired in a Swedish accent. “I’ve come to service the central heating” Eddy replied. Ah yes, Madam said you would be coming, please come in.

Once inside Eddy looked round at the expensive furniture and decorations with some envy. He had been working on his own for only two weeks and was not yet used to going into other people’s homes. Please follow me the maid said, and she led the way to the boiler room. Thanks love, Eddy said, I will start on the boiler then check the radiators. Eddy thought about the girl as he worked. What a little cracker and quite friendly. He would chat her up a bit, then insist that she came with him to check the radiators. Once in her bedroom, well, he would see what developed.

Eddy was just about to call her when she appeared. You like some tea? She asked. Oh, please. We can have a quick cuppa and then you can show me the radiators. Yes, what is you name please? Eddy, what’s yours? My name is Olga, please follow. As they sat in the kitchen drinking their tea, they started to make small talk. I am aupair to Madam Hastings she explained. An aupair? But I thought that meant living as one of the family. Oh yes, madam is very kind. But you have to wear a uniform? Yes, madam insists but I don’t mind. It looks very pretty, no?  Oh yes, Eddy said, very pretty, indeed.

We look at radiators now? Right, come on. Eddy got up and his hand went to her well, shaped bottom. As he squeezed she nestled back onto his palm, wriggling slightly. Come on your naughty boy, she said. Err, how long is your mistress going to be out? Olga fluttered her eyelashes, oh long enough I think. Actually, Eddy didn’t care. This girl was asking for it and she was going to get it.

She showed him round the flat until they came to a very large bedroom which contained a huge double bed. Eddy checked the radiator, then straightened up. And now, where is your bedroom? Here Olga replied. You mean you sleep in that bed? Yes. But where does your mistress sleep? Here, she said again. You sleep together? Oh yes Olga replied smiling broadly. And does she………? Eddy started. Olga was young but experienced. Yes, she does but she is very gentle with me. Too gentle sometimes and arched her eyebrows. Eddie was over to her in three strides and pushed her back on the bed. Her hand went to his crotch as he grasped one of her breasts. Each had a hand on the other’s buttocks. Their lips met, and her tongue pushed its way into his mouth. He stopped and got up. What is wrong? She asked. Just getting my jeans off. Get your knickers down. No, no Eddy, that is your job she replied with a giggle. Eddy did not take long to do it and very soon his bare buttocks were jumping up and down between her willing thighs.

Eventually Eddy gave a deep sigh and lay flat on Olga. And just what is going on here? Said a deep contralto voice. Eddy looked up. In the doorway stood a tall blonde woman in a long red cape and red knee-length boots. Eddy jumped up looking round for his jeans. Olga gave a squeal and scrambled off the bed. Just who the hell are you? The woman asked. I, er….came to service the central heating Eddy replied. Instead you service my maid, eh? I’m sorry Madam Olga started. I will deal with you in a minute young lady. You, you little rapist, what excuse, if any, have you got? I didn’t rape her Eddy protested. She looked at Olga. He did rape you didn’t he my dear? Oh err….. yes, madam. I could not stop him. Well young man, do I ring the police or do I deal with you? Eddy as trapped and he knew it. Please don’t ring the police, he begged. We will see. Both of you get all your clothes off. Olga had stripped already. Go and get the twelve inch tawse, Olga, madam ordered. By the tine Olga returned, Eddy was naked with his hands firmly clasped in front of him. The pair of you, over the bed side by side, Madam ordered. Please madam, he made me Olga said. Silly girl. That story is for the police. Now get over.

Madam Hastings contemplated the two lovely young bottoms in front of her. She really enjoyed doing this. Six of the best each, then six more for him if he would not sign a full confession, and so on until he did.

Whack, Whack< Whack, the strokes went on, reddening the bottoms more each time. Now madam said when they had each had their dose. You, miss, go and make my tea and you, young man, I want a signed confession, or you get six more. Eddy straightened up. But why? He said through his tears. You’re a good-looking young man. It will be convenient to be able to call on your services whenever I want to. There was a small desk and chair in the corner of the room. She plonked a pillow on the chair. Now sit down there and get writing…I will dictate.  

Advice for Transgender People

1. If you haven’t been issued a Gender Recognition Certificate
2. If you’ve been issued a Gender Recognition Certificate
3. If you’ve been issued a new birth certificate

• your deed poll, showing that you’ve changed your name to one that’s associated with your new gender
• medical​‌‌‌​‌‌ ​‌‌‌​‌​evidence​‌‌‌​‌​ ​‌‌‌​‌‌showing​‌​‌‌‌‌ ​‌‌​​​​that​‌‌​​‌‌ ​‌‌​​‌‌your​‌‌​​​​ ​‌‌‌​​‌change​‌‌‌​​‌ ​‌‌​‌‌​of​‌‌‌‌​​ ​‌‌‌​‌​gender​‌‌​​‌‌ ​‌​‌​‌‌is​‌‌‌​‌‌ ​‌​‌​‌​“​‌‌​‌​​likely​​​‌‌‌ ​​‌‌‌​to​​‌‌​‌ ​​‌​​‌be​​​‌‌​ ​​‌​​‌p​​‌​​​ermanent”.  This can be a report from a medical practitioner (such as your consultant or GP), or a chartered psychologist practicing in the field of gender dysphoria.

Dawn's Transgender Story Most of the time Dawn lives as a man using a male name. However, she considers herself to be transgender.

Dawn, who works as an occupational health nurse on an oil platform, describes growing up as a boy who liked to dress in girls' clothes. She hid that part of her identity when she was in the Air Force, but in recent years she's become more open about her feminine side. "As far back as infant school I remember playing with dolls and dressing in my sister's clothes. I also remember feeling upset that girls wore skirts and boys didn't. "When I was about 10 or 11, I used to escape through the bedroom window at night and walk around town in girls' clothes. Once, I got caught by the police and taken home. My mother then took me to see a psychologist. "I think we saw the psychologist two or three times. At one stage, he asked me: 'Do you want to be a girl?' My parents were sitting with me, so I gave an answer they wanted to hear rather than the truthful answer. Looking back, I think if they hadn't been there, things might have been different. "After that, I kept that side of me hidden even more because it upset my parents. I kept myself as busy as possible at home, but the feelings never went away. "I chose the name Dawn when I was about 12 years old. I wanted to be 'me', and my given male name didn't have a female version. I thought for a long time before settling on Dawn. "Dawn has many meanings: the start of a new day, or a realisation. But I chose it mainly because I like the name, and the few people I knew who were called Dawn seemed like nice people. "I lived in a small town in Wiltshire with few job prospects, so when I was 16 I joined the Air Force. I became an aircraft mechanic for a short time before switching to nursing. That's what I've done ever since. "Back then, being trans in the Air Force was a big problem, so I kept it hidden. I found out about trans groups through other people and from newspaper articles. In the 1970s and 1980s there wasn't much publicity, so you heard about it from agony aunts such as Clare Rayner and Marje Proops. "While I was still in the Air Force, I visited trans groups in Bristol and London. It was an opportunity to meet like-minded people and to realise that I wasn't alone." Meeting my partner, Jules "In 1985 I moved to London and left the Air Force. It was the first time I'd lived completely on my own. As I was away from family and friends, I seriously considered transitioning [living full-time as a woman]. For nearly one year I dressed as a woman except when I was at work. "Then I met Jules, my partner, an absolutely wonderful woman. I decided that my priority was to stay with her rather than transition. "Shortly after we started going out together, we moved to the coast. Cornwall, our new home, was very different from London, and I hid my trans side initially. "Only in recent years have we started being more open. I dress in women's clothes maybe once or twice a week when I'm at home, and when Jules and I go to National Trust places, to the cinema or for dinner. But we generally do it away from our home town so that people who know us won't see us. "My two sisters know that I'm trans. My parents don't know, or if they do know they haven't said anything about it. Jules' parents know. She told them when we first started dating, and I've been out with them dressed in women's clothes. "We try to tell people only if they need to know, but I don't like hiding it. l'd like everyone to know and not worry about it, but Jules would rather keep it a bit quieter." Being found out at work "Recently I was found out at work. I'm a nurse on an oil platform, and I was moving to another platform. Somebody emptied my locker for me and sent the contents to the next platform. People on my new platform also saw photographs of me on the internet. "It was quite upsetting when I got a phone call warning me to be careful at work because all this information was out. "I was expecting ridicule, abuse and possibly discrimination from the management team, but it was the total opposite. The management team supported me 100%, and the people who made a big fuss about it were taken off the platform. "Being accepted at work was a humbling experience. My work colleagues' support and relaxed attitude has made me feel valued and wanted. "I don't tell people that I'm trans. It doesn't come up in conversation, and it's not important to my work, but I don't have to keep it a secret any more. "Being a transgender person isn't easy, although I've had an easier time than most people. I've had a lot of frustration. I've had to keep my feminine side secret, and I try to conform to what society expects. But now that I'm older, I feel more confident about my gender identity. "I like to think that having a strong feminine side has helped me to help other people, which is good for my nursing. It possibly gives me a more caring nature. But as I've always been trans, I have nothing to compare it against. "I know that if I were given the option, I wouldn't like to lose the feminine side of my life. I wouldn't be me."

Tips For More Successful Crossdressing 

1. Panty Girdle or Tight Panties – You can easily get hold of these items in most stores, many xdressers wear a slightly smaller size of panty girdle to create a tighter stomach area whilst using the rigidity of the panty to try and hold the male parts intact and flattened.
2. Tie-Sides – This type of panty is as the name suggests, you tie them around the sides of your waist, sufficiently tight, to hold everything in place.
3. Realistic Vagina Panty– This is a specific crossdressing and transgender panty that features a super strong control panel at the front which flattens and tucks your male genitalia easily and comfortably for extended periods of time

1. a) Everything upfront: You should be able to get hold of your balls in one hand, bring those to the front, whilst moving your penis underneath to create the flattest arrangement possible. You may be surprised to learn that you have an empty cavity above the balls that allow them to rise into and be hidden away from sight. Bear in mind that you should be very careful when trying to place the balls into the upper empty cavity, practice slowly and beginners may even want try this method whilst laying on their back.
2. b) Placing the penis behind: Now that you have your balls upfront and hopefully hidden from sight in that empty cavity you can proceed to place the penis. To flatten the penis you should ideally place your hand from behind through your legs and pull the penis backwards between your legs, you can do this from the front if you aren’t able to go through the legs from the back.
3. c) Gaff adjustment: You can now complete the method by pulling up the gaff around your thighs as high around the thigh area as required, this should leave a flattened crotch area. You can place your hand down the front of the gaff and push the penis further around to fine tune things.

Breast and Nipple Pumps

1- Breast enlargement pumps stimulate breast growth through tissue expansion.

2. Breast enlargement pumps give you an instant size boost.